Bohemian flunky....

I have always lived my life in such a predictable way. Always follow the rules. Always have a plan. Always do what's right. Always be an example. Always keep your word. Always meet (exceed) expectations. Always. All honorable endeavors. But WHY? In my mind all of it was for God's glory. Of course. Why else? My actions point others to God, right? Then.....the epiphany.....I was on my way to church. I was headed there early because I was scheduled for the praise team, worship team, whatever your church calls it. All I know is I would be out front with a mic. I didn't know the songs as well as I liked and wouldn't have music in front of me. I was stressing and "calling out to the Lord"! I was concerned about messing up the music. I didn't like what I was wearing. I wasn't sure everybody would approve of the music selected. I just knew God didn't want me to stress like this. I must have made a mistake when I joined the choir. On and on....Then the Lord asked me, "Which of these troublesome issues are stressing you because of your concern they will dishonor Me?" BOOM! Wha....well.....ummm...Man. I was nailed right there in the middle of Kempsville Road. NONE! I was totally consumed with how everyone would look at me. What they would think of me. There was absolutely no thought in my brain of glorifying God. Whoa. Back up and check the rearview. Has my whole life been this? In the deepest recesses of my heart? I love God. I want to serve Him. But as I stood before the mirror again....Things needed to change. Bohemia! Here I come!