Ever wake up somewhere (other than home) and lie there for a minute trying to figure out where you are? That's where I am, only I'm wide awake.
I sat in a restaurant tonight, by the window. As others around me carried on conversation, I found myself gazing out over the parking lot and beyond to the trees. Raindrops caused the slightest movement over the scene. Sounds and activity around me faded into the background as my mind and my heart wandered to another place and I considered my life..... As you wake up in your unfamiliar place, you're not afraid, not uncomfortable, just a bit unsure. You pause as you gather your thoughts around you to make sense of your present situation. Yep. Pretty much there.
See, I'm the "ducks in a row" kinda gal. And to get my ducks in a row (and keep them there), I have to be able to see and understand a bit of the future. As I gaze to places ahead of me, the view is a bit hazy. There seems to be no danger. Peril isn't necessarily a concern, but still, the path is concealed, the next step unclear. There's no panic involved, no frenzy, just caution. It's sort of like walking out onto a frozen pond that, you've been assured, is solid ice and will hold your weight. Still you move ahead carefully, unfamiliar with what might be ahead. Then you look by your side and the owner of the pond is walking with you, completely confident. HIS ducks are certainly in a row. In fact He's got my ducks under control as well.
"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10)
"And I sing because I'm happy. I sing because I'm free! His eye is on the sparrow and I KNOW He watches me!"
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